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i hear the voices getting louder

» WHO? takeshi kovacs + ota
» WHEN? throughout the weekend and next week
» WHERE? chapel, fitness area, bar, and various others
» WHAT? causing trouble
» WARNINGS? language but nothing else as of yet

001. chapel

[ he's not here to pray.

he's not here to do anything but sit in the quiet and think. it's been a few weeks since the arrival of the backpack (which sits on the bench beside him) and he'd thought, for a few hours, that maybe more things would arrive. maybe a gun or an oni or fuck, he'd take ortega herself showing up. but nothing else familiar arrives.

he's even started seeing less of quell. she's still there when he sleeps but the glimpses of her he used to catch from the corner of his eyes are happening less and less. he's not sure if that means his fragged mind is healing or getting worse.

maybe it seems she's alive somewhere. yeah right, what a fucking miracle that would be. he'd seen her explode and he'd probably walked on the ashes that had been her body as he'd tried to get off harlan's world.

while he's alone, he reads a few of the quotes off the wall and then reaches into the backpack to physically throw garbage at the ones he doesn't like (which is all of them). he knew that some of this shit would come in handy and making a mess was juvenile but he had fuck all else to do.

it wasn't like anyone would notice. this place was a mess anyway. ]

002. fitness area

Well, this is just fucking boring.

[ ever since the new sleeve, he's never really done a lot of solo training. quell's training two sleeves ago had stuck and from then on, a life spent being hunted and taking out those he'd been paid to kill had left him in decent enough shape.

then, there had been the life sentence and over two centuries spent on ice doing absolutely nothing. ryker's death had left a physically capable sleeve behind even if it was a sleeve that she had a fucking attachment to, unbeknownst to him until he'd been wearing the sleeve for awhile.

he drops the backpack on the ground and circles the room, staring down at the pool and making a face. didn't look like any place he wanted to take a swim in. plenty of people had probably pissed in that.

these facilities were a long way from even carnage's shitty little spectacle. at least he'd had a cheering section and some competition. ]

Ain't none of that here.

[ of course he'd think that. of course. ]

003. bar

[ even kovacs could tell the alcohol was running low. he kept expecting to stop in (during one of his daily walks through the station) and see more of it. but, that hadn't happened yet. bottles were half empty, knocked over and collecting dust.

kovacs spends some time behind the bar, remembering the one time he'd had a bartender who made some decent drinks before she'd up and disappeared. lucky fucker. if she wasn't here, she had to be somewhere better.

and yet, he's still here, stuck. one of the bottles he picks up and brings up to sniff is filled with something so strong that it burns the lining of his nose and actually makes him blink. ]

Smells like fuel.

[ which meant it was fucking perfect.

kovacs made his way over to one of the booths and laid down, long legs dangling over the side. the backpack was placed on his stomach and the bottle on the table. he stared up at the ceiling, wondering how plausible it would be to just kick his way out of this place.

answer: not plausible at all.

where was poe and his arsenal when you really needed him? ]

004. wildcard

[ got something else in mind? feel free to make it happen. hit me up at

spoonishly to plot! ]

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There's a grim sort of smile for the answer, and Miller idly reads the words around the room. One looks more familiar than the rest to him: If healing does not come in mortal life, it will come thereafter. It catches his eye because he's almost sure it's an LDS thing, but also because of their conversation. He draws in a shallow breath and holds it a moment, lost deep in thought.

"So would you rather be here or there?"

"There."

For one, it was as close to a home as he'd get. Harlan's World was a fucking dream but at least Earth was close enough to it that he could imagine himself there when he was on a drug high.

"I haven't solved that fucker's murder yet so I don't have my pardon," Kovacs says, shaking his head, "and I do not want to go back on ice."

He might show a disdain for life and people and everything but he preferred being alive and being able to fully spread his oh so cheery attitude to being a stack tossed onto someone's desk.

"But, I guess I shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. I am still alive here. And apparently if I die, I don't have to worry about a new sleeve since you just...come back."

That finally gets the ex-detective to turn his head, and there's something almost wistful in his gaze.

"You got brought back for a murder mystery?" Sounds like a bad Tim Curry movie from the 1990s waiting to happen tbh.

"Wouldn't have been my first choice in jobs either," Kovacs says with a roll of his eyes. "Laurens Bancroft hired me to solve his own goddamn murder."

Try and figure that one out, Miller. You won't because you can't. It's taking even Kovacs time to figure that shit out.

"He's the richest, oldest Meth on Earth so he can do what he wants and what he wanted was to wake me up and turn me into an honorary member of the Bay City PD."

He hadn't even gotten a fucking badge. Fucking ripped off.

He laughs, and once he starts it's like a dam breaks and he can't stop. He has to hold a hand to his chest, pressing hard to abate the pressure from his ribs, still not fully healed. But there's something cleansing about a good laugh, he can't remember when he last had one.

"Sorry, I was trying to picture you as a cop. It was hilarious."

Kovacs doesn't even hesitate to use his long arms to reach over and try and smack Miller right in the side of the head. It's not going to cause him permanent brain damage so Miller should consider himself extremely lucky.

"Believe me, the BCPD didn't like it either," Kovacs says, rolling his eyes. "I had a babysitter and everything."

Fucking Ortega.

"Didn't even get my own gun," Kovacs said. "Luckily, I had plenty of places to get one myself."

Miller flinches back at the blow, covering the spot with his own hand. "Dick," he complains, but there's no heat behind it even as he knocks his shoulder into Kovacs as hard as he can with zero leverage from the side. He's distinctly aware that the man could have killed him if he wanted to, and his shove is akin to a Bulbasaur blowing leafs onto a Charizard. It isn't very effective...

"Maybe I can help. I am a detective, remember?" Like, an actual one??? "What are the facts of the case so far?"

Miller's body is nothing more than duct tape and popsicle sticks but Kovacs indulges him by rocking to the side (okay, it wasn't all indulgence, he'd gotten some good leverage there). Still, he straightens up like the blow had been a minor nuisance (which it had been).

His lips twist while he considers whether or not to let Miller in on the case. What could it fucking hurt since Bancroft wasn't here?

"Laurens Bancroft called me in to investigate his own murder," Kovacs says. "Someone or something killed minutes before his consciousness was backed up, eliminating the memory of the murder. So, he has no idea how he dies but he wants to make sure it's not his fucking wife or son who did it."

That was the gist of it, basically. "Bancroft's a Meth. Richest one on Earth and he definitely acts like it. When he eventually dies, his family gets nothing so they benefit in no way from killing him. But, guy like that has a lot of enemies."

"How was he killed?" The family is always the first to look at, but if they have no motive... Miller closes his eyes as if he could see the scene though he's never walked it. This is all unscientific conjecture. Which of course is exactly what all good detective work is. "Did you see his body - er, sleeve before it was put on ice or whatever it is you guys... do."

"Gun. Blew his brains out and would have destroyed his stack if he hadn't been backed up and downloaded into another sleeve," Kovacs says, jaw working back and forth. He didn't think the family had anything to do with it. Bancroft's wife was definitely capable but she seems to enjoy hurting her husband in other ways.

(Like fucking the guy who investigating your husband's murder, oops.)

And his son was just -- Isaac had some real reason to want to kill his father but he didn't seem the type.

"Didn't see the body. Everything was cleaned up by the time I got there except the bloodstain. I think he's keeping it to have a story to tell."

"If you didn't see the wound it'll be hard to prove he didn't shoot himself. You think he ever would?" A beat. "Maybe to rope you into playing out a weird, fetishy game of Clue for his own ego trip?"

It's as good a theory as any without knowing any of these people or the situation, he figures. For Miller, he just likes having something simple to think about, like a murder/suicide/whatever.

"I go back and forth on that," Kovacs admits, frowning. "Sometimes, it's the most obvious solution but other times, I can't see someone as ego fucking maniacal as him deciding to off himself."

If Miller thinks Kovacs is full of himself, he would shit himself if he ever got to meet Laurens Bancroft. He was insufferable in ways that made you want to kill him slowly.

"He was rich. Had a lot of money and acted like he was a god. Puts the pool of suspects pretty fucking high."

"Sounds fun. Wanna trade places?" Kovacs can go on Miller's suicide mission and Miller can solve the case of the dead Meth. Win-win. Except he would never trade his own life now that he knows he talks to Julie. He's desperate to get back there more and more with each passing day.

"Trade places?" Kovacs doesn't try to hide his dubious tone. He knows what happened to you Miller and he's not looking to fly anything into a big rock to save a planet full of people he'd probably hate.

"I'll pass," he decides with a shake of his head. "Your life just sounds too exciting to me. I'm old, my heart can't take the excitement that fills your life. Also, if trading meant I'd have to wear the hat, then fuck that."

He snorts, humorless and dry as ever. "Nah, I left this hat on Ceres-" Miller picks it up off the kiddie backpack and turns it in his hand idly, touching the inside pocket to make sure Julie's picture is still in there. "Dick move, too. Should've given it back to that friend I told you about, he probably would've wanted to be buried in it. Or, you know, maybe not get shot by Amos in the first place."

Yeah that's right, his 'beratna' on board murdered his bestie. This is normal?????

"Amos? The same Amos who hulks around the station like a an angry bear?" Kovacs hasn't actually met Amos in person but he thinks he's learned enough to be able to call him that confidently.

"So, this guy shot your friend and you and he are...what? Friends? Acquaintances? Because I haven't heard any stories of you going after him and him breaking you into pieces so you must have some kind of relationship with him.

"That's the one. Why, are you doubting he's as trigger-happy as he looks? Because - don't."

This really shouldn't be so easy for him to joke about, he knows. Sematimba was his oldest friend, and the only person he'd trusted for a long damn time. Until he'd met Muss, at least. Maybe longer. But then Semi had gone and there was a part of him that felt abandoned, maybe. Lonely, definitely. Why it's so natural to tell Kovacs all of this is the part he really hasn't sussed out yet.

"I did go after him, and he almost broke me into pieces. Naomi stopped him." He says this with the same detached interest. "Aqua under the bridge." The truth is Amos is the closest thing he has to family here.

"I don't doubt that at all. Wouldn't surprise me to find out he sleeps with that fucking gun," Kovacs says with a disdainful shake of his head. Honestly, if you wanted to sleep with weapons, keep them away from your head. That's where 'real death' happened.

"I don't know if I could forgive and forget that easily," he admits thoughtfully. But, then again, "I also don't have a friend like that."

Did he have any friends at all? No, not anymore. They were all dead and gone, ghosts that wandered Harlan's World. And he has no fucking clue what Rei is right now.

It gets a dry, brief laugh. "Would you look at that: neither do I. Not anymore."

And it doesn't hurt anymore. There's just a cool patch of numbness where he used to house all of his memories of Semi. He wouldn't be who he was without him; hell, he wouldn't even be alive. Maybe that's enough in the end, even if he's just about the worst vessel to carry on someone's memory there could be.

"Yeah, but you got those bunch of shits that know you," Kovacs point out with a wave of his hand. "Telling me you haven't grown closed and bonded while you've been with them? I thought extreme situations and close quarters made it impossible not to have that happen?"

But really, Kovacs doesn't know a fucking thing about where they came from and how they traveled. He's just making assumptions on what he knows and how the others of Miller's world have talked about him.

Miller was a fungus. He grew on you and you kind of just had to deal with it. Maybe not the foundation for a great friendship.

Kovacs doesn't care.

Something almost wistful passes over his expression, but he's still reading the inscriptions on the wall, looking anywhere but Kovacs' face.

"There was a time they were ready to call me family. Had my own bunk on their ship and everything." His voice grows tight, even if he tries to hide how much he wanted it at the time. Maybe how much he still does, here. "Kill one genocidal fuckhead and suddenly - that was it. Off the team."

Miller shrugs, suddenly standing and turning so he can face the other man, putting his hat on his head for lack of better things to do.

"You done here?" Because apparently he's sticking to you, Kovacs, like the veritable rubber cement he is. What it really means is we.

Kovacs frowns, trying to figure out how killing someone who was cool with genocide would be a bad thing. He'd have thought that taking out someone like that would actually be doing some good for the world.

Wondered what that said about Miller's friends, that they were in support of someone capable of genocide staying alive. Maybe he'd ask them one day.

"Didn't know they were the cheerleaders for genocide," Kovacs says, pushing himself to his feet and letting that serve as his answer.

Miller glares at him, but waits for him to shoulder his backpack still loaded with his precious Rhino. That's trust right there.

"They're not, sabakawala." Remember that one?

"Christ Miller, when you talk like that, I lose the ability to walk straight," he quips, rolling his eyes and leading the way out of the chapel. He can feel the weight in his backpack and decides to think on the fact that Miller's put something that important and that valuable in his hands later.

Needless to say, it's a strange thing and he's probably going to curse about it when he does remember it happened later because how dare you, Miller.

"Would you call them your friends?" Kovacs wonders as they walk. "People you trust?"

Matching the eyeroll, he falls in line with the taller man, trying not to think on how natural it had become to wander the station with him. As Kovacs asks about the crew, Miller realizes that they're friends. That he even sort of trusts Kovacs. This is the worst day ever. Especially since now he has to be nice.

"I don't call them anything, alright? ...But out of everyone on this pathetic excuse for a space station, they probably know what they're talking about. We could've been dead in the water when that gravity shit happened." See how he refuses to take any credit for that, still? Even though he'd saved Alex and kept a fair few people alive while they were extracting space debris from the rings. "So yeah. I trust them."

Miller looks down at his boots while he walks, hands shoved in jumpsuit pockets until he can feel the surface of Julie's beads. Without them, he never meets Julie. But that hasn't happened for him yet. All he can do is try to get them out of here so he can die in peace.

001. chapel

002. fitness area

003. bar

004. wildcard

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