I don't regret the choice — I would've died either way, and I had already started mentally preparing myself for that inevitability. I just... being here has given me too much time to think. And I've been trying so hard not to, but it's just been building and building and I felt like I was going to burst.

[He puts a hand on Alucard's shoulder, fingers grasping gently into the fabric as he finally looks up to meet his gaze, and tears are rolling down his cheeks again.]

I'm only 17. There's so much I never got to do with my life.