I'll have you know I can be very charming when I have a reason to be. [ though he admittedly doesn't generally see much use for it. he's generally pleasant enough without laying it on like that.

he shifts, stretching his legs out and crossing booted ankles with a hum. ]

You'll have to get in line. [ his fists curl in his lap, going a little white-knuckled as he stares down at them. ] I was-- this close to losing control at times. [ really losing control. if he'd had a little less strength of will.. he doesn't want to think about what might have happened, what people would have had to do to stop him. ]