[ "Here" is a lot of places. Physically here letting Ren shoujo-cling to the best immediate remedy that's available to him. The "here" that is on this station, in his life, By His Side, any and all of what Ren could have and still can continue living with if Ryuji can. That's always been the proviso, and the longer he lays himself into Ryuji and lets the distress of the moment drain it becomes easier to recall that this is how it works with them, being one another's best keepers.
It was Ren's mistake to think that that meant Ryuji'd want the same things as him, is all. He's not interested in Ren. So that's that.
They're gonna be okay. It doesn't feel like it now but things always are between them. Ren will cry for a long while and trust Ryuji to protect the vulnerable parts of him, even if he's the one who was empowered to inadvertently use that blind spot against Ren in this horribly narrow angle. Strangely it's one of the moments that he's felt closest to Ryuji, in spilling his heart even if it did get punished.
Space, probably. Time, yeah. Time here, wherever "here" is. And when he feels like he's done crying and ready to let go (respectively: yesterday and never) he does, pulling back to sit facing on another, the outsides of their thighs pressed together.
Ren's better with words than Ryuji is, but at the same time it's important to speak someone else's language from time to time to reinforce a bond, to convey what might otherwise be misinterpreted. Ren wouldn't hurt him. He can reach up to thumb away the wetness on Ryuji's cheeks, a mixture of guilt and empathy in Ren's stinging red eyes, but what's more is the hand moving from there to the back of Ryuji's head, mussing the overgrowth on its way to tugging him forward.
The contact of Ren's lips to Ryuji's forehead is solid, something he hasn't done before and may never do again. But he hopes that he knows what Ren is saying.
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[ "Here" is a lot of places. Physically here letting Ren shoujo-cling to the best immediate remedy that's available to him. The "here" that is on this station, in his life, By His Side, any and all of what Ren could have and still can continue living with if Ryuji can. That's always been the proviso, and the longer he lays himself into Ryuji and lets the distress of the moment drain it becomes easier to recall that this is how it works with them, being one another's best keepers.
It was Ren's mistake to think that that meant Ryuji'd want the same things as him, is all. He's not interested in Ren. So that's that.
They're gonna be okay. It doesn't feel like it now but things always are between them. Ren will cry for a long while and trust Ryuji to protect the vulnerable parts of him, even if he's the one who was empowered to inadvertently use that blind spot against Ren in this horribly narrow angle. Strangely it's one of the moments that he's felt closest to Ryuji, in spilling his heart even if it did get punished.
Space, probably. Time, yeah. Time here, wherever "here" is. And when he feels like he's done crying and ready to let go (respectively: yesterday and never) he does, pulling back to sit facing on another, the outsides of their thighs pressed together.
Ren's better with words than Ryuji is, but at the same time it's important to speak someone else's language from time to time to reinforce a bond, to convey what might otherwise be misinterpreted. Ren wouldn't hurt him. He can reach up to thumb away the wetness on Ryuji's cheeks, a mixture of guilt and empathy in Ren's stinging red eyes, but what's more is the hand moving from there to the back of Ryuji's head, mussing the overgrowth on its way to tugging him forward.
The contact of Ren's lips to Ryuji's forehead is solid, something he hasn't done before and may never do again. But he hopes that he knows what Ren is saying.
We'll be okay no matter what. ]