Protection. Where we were and what the docs were doing was considered need to know, in case somebody got the idea to come after it for themselves. They couldn't risk anything happening to them.

[He's come to understand it. Mostly forgiven it. But right now... He's so tired. And so frustrated. It's bubbling in his veins again. The betrayal he'd felt back then.]

It wasn't even really that though. It was the not knowing what was going on back home. To find out what was happening to our families while we played wargames on the ice.