I thought I wanted it. [He paused, still staring into his drink.]

No- I did want it. But wantin' somethin' and bein' fit for it ain't the same thing.

[He raised his glass, downing the rest of his drink.]

I'm the god damn pilot of the gunship Rocinante, that's what I am. And a better pilot than they ever let me believe I was. That's where I'm supposed to be.

[ He looked down at his ring, using his thumb to slide it up his finger. ]

Just ain't really possible to be both.