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» WHO? Tatsuya and Jun
» WHEN? End of Spetember-ish
» WHERE? Observation Deck
» WHAT? ROMANCE
» WARNINGS? None to start with! Will edit with warnings as necessary.

It's been a long time coming.... But Tatsuya had once thought it never would.

It's hard to tell just by looking whether it's day or night when you're out in space. It doesn't really matter, either. For them, it's dinnertime and Tatsuya's got a date planned. He'd hit up the replicator for dinner-- it might not be quite as good as the real thing, but it was a lot better than it used to be. They'd discussed the meal earlier: leg of lamb, carrots (chopped into coins), roasted asparagus, and baked potatoes with all the fixings. A nice meal, and-- Tatsuya hopes-- a nice date with his lover.

His lover. The thought still sends giddy thrills through him, and he can't help but smile softly to himself.

Jun should be here soon-- they'd agreed on a time, but he'd gone ahead early to set up. Tatsuya looks out to the stars, wondering where Earth is among all of them.

Maybe Jun will know.

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Jun actually waits just a little longer than necessary- fashionably late, but it was because he knew that there was no way for this to be set up without Tatsuya doing it himself, and he didn't want him to have to rush.

Anyway, he needed to make himself as presentable as possible, which was hard with the jumpsuit and Joker's outfit being all that he had access to, but... well. He could make it work. When he arrived on the observation deck, he'd have his tank top on, and the white pants from that wretched costume, with the ends stuffed into his mag boots, leaving him looking like he was dressed in all white but for the shoes. It... worked. Wasn't his FIRST choice for a date outfit but it worked.

He sighs, wringing his fingers as he arrived on the observation deck, ignoring the stars for a moment to look for his lover. "...Tatsuya?"

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Tatsuya didn't even have the option for an alternate date outfit, something he regretted but at least he liked the jumpsuit. (Tatsuya's taste in clothing was questionable, some might say, but he honestly doesn't care what they think.)

He turns his head at the sound of Jun's voice, and his breath momentarily catches. It's not that the outfit is anything special, except it's Jun so of course it is. He can't help but notice that Jun wore those pants. He must have really wanted to look nice, huh? The thought sets the butterflies in his stomach into a flurry.

(Wait no, not butterflies-- hummingbirds. There we go, that's a much more pleasant thought.)

He walks over towards Jun, his strides long and purposeful. Tatsuya stops in front of him, reaching out to hold his hand.

"Jun. Hey."

Jun immediately blushes at the way he's being looked at. Yeah, he can tell, and he's a little shy still. If only because this was so new to him, and so wonderful??? And gods he didn't deserve it.

And yet... he offers his hand when Tatsuya reaches for it, fingers curling around Tatsuya's as he pulls that hand up to his heart. "Tatsuya..." he responds, almost reverently, before leaning up to press a kiss to his lips.

Tatsuya kisses him back, and it's a gentle thing-- soft and warm and still new, full of love and longing. It somehow manages to feel both like the kiss lasts forever but also too brief, not nearly long enough before he parts. Tatsuya thinks to himself that he'd like to take Jun back to his place later and kiss him some more, but he doesn't want dinner to get cold.

"I'm happy to see you too." The words are gentle, somehow both teasing but also so sincere it could almost be embarrassing, if Tatsuya had any shame about it. He does not.

Jun is still just so unused to this, and while he's not ashamed in the least, it is still so scandalous, kissing in public like this, and he can feel his face heating up some more. He giggles when Tatsuya finally releases his lips, enjoying the light teasing.

"I'm happy any time I get to see you", he responds with a light laugh, still holding on to Tatsuya's hand as he tugs him a little closer to the setup to get a good look at it. They had to work with what they had, but it was still so nice. So lovely, sitting here on he observation deck, seeing the stars, and getting to enjoy a meal with Tatsuya.

"Waking up in the morning and getting to see you is a dream come true, you know?"

The setup is pretty simple, mainly because Tatsuya didn't have a lot to work with-- a simple spread with each food item on separate plates, and then the two clean ones for them to dish out their food on. Simple, but somehow he doesn't think that Jun will mind. He'd rather give him more than this, but you take what you can get. Especially when you're on a space station far from home.

"Yeah, I do know," he murmurs with a smile. He feels the same way. "So's being here right now."

Not the space station, of course. Being on a date with Jun, though? Priceless.

Jun doesn't even stop himself when a tear wells up in his eye, and he smiles at Tatsuya. It takes a little while for him to be able to look upon the setup, since he was so fixed on Tatsuya. "I love you so much... And I'm so happy to be able to share this moment with you. Even if it's... You know. So odd." He chuckles.

He couldn't help it. This was ridiculous. And yet he was so happy to be here, even if it was selfish.

"This looks wonderful, Tatsuya." No, of course he didn't care that it was not much. It was a date with his beloved! It could be underground with a single loaf of bread, and he'd be happy.

It could be underground with a loaf of bread, but fortunately it was at least a little nicer than that.

Another grin blossoms on Tatsuya's face at Jun's words. "I love you, too. And I'm glad you like it."

He keeps his fingers laced with Jun's as he walks him towards the food. If this is selfish, then Tatsuya will happily indulge the feeling. Bit by bit, he wants to help Jun learn to live with himself and to keep that happiness. He doesn't care whether or not it's deserved-- selfishly, he wants it for Jun.

He knows he's going to need to let go of Jun's hand in order to eat, but he doesn't think he wants to just yet. It's nice. All of this is... nice.

Jun sits next to Tatsuya, unable to bring himself to sit across from him. He was happy here, right next to Tatsuya, feeling his body beside him, and he doesn't want to let go of his hand either.

He did still feel bad for feeling so happy, but he didn't show it. He didn't want Tatsuya to worry, or to feel like what he did wasn't enough. It was enough. It was more than enough, really. Almost too much. Jun didn't deserve all of this, he thought through his smile, but he'd enjoy it for Tatsuya's sake.

"I suppose we should eat before it gets cold... And then we could hold hands some more?"

"Too bad we can't eat and hold hands at the same time," Tatsuya says, but he reluctantly lets go anyway. Th eonly way he can imagine that working is elaborately feeding each other, and he suspects that's too high level for their first real date. He mentally files it away for a future one, though.

Future dates. The thought makes him so happy that he doesn't know how he manages to keep it contained within himself.

"I expect lots of hand-holding after dinner." The words are gentle, playful. "And stargazing, too. Maybe we can try to figure out which one is Earth."

Jun laughs again at that. He also thinks that they could manage it with some teamwork, but maybe not that for today, and not with food like this. Maybe they could have some kind of finger foods later that would work better for it sometime?

"I'd like that. I haven't really gotten to look at the stars yet", he replied, pulling his hand away, but leaning toward Tatsuya.

Tatsuya seems more than fine with that, meeting Jun partway in the lean.

"Me neither," he confesses. "I've been meaning to, but..." He shrugs slightly. "Time just kept getting away from me, I guess."

Not that they don't have all the time in the world, but there's plenty to distract from the stars... especially when things tended to go terrible wrong as often as they'd seemed to. Music for days, terrible illnesses... It all seemed like so much at times.

A lot of the things had distracted him as well. There was no avoiding it, especially with Jun's guilt running rampant. He felt a need to help as much as he could, which Tatsuya had found out and managed to help get him away from for a moment.

"When I first got here, it had spooked me a little, honestly", he replied, laughing sheepishly. It had reminded him of where they'd come from, but now he felt better about it. He glanced toward the stars for just a moment before he leaned in to get his plate, beginning to fill it.

"I wonder if there are any familiar constellations..."

Where they'd come from... It's a sudden reminder that there's things Tatsuya still hasn't told Jun, and for a moment his mark aches. Tatsuya ignores that, though, glancing out to the stars outside the window. There's a hundred thousand million stars out there, glowing brilliantly and brightly. Tatsuya distantly remembers that it takes thousands of years for some of their light to reach people. How many of those beautiful, brilliant stars had already faded and burned out?

Tatsuya turns to look at the food, piling up his own plate. There should be plenty of food for both of them, he'd made sure of it. Teenage boys need a lot of food, and he wasn't about to skimp out on any... especially not for date night.

"We can make our own up," Tatsuya says after a moment. "Our own constellations and our own stories for them all."

Jun giggles at that, loving the idea of making their own constellations. He didn't know if he'd be able to come up with stories, but he had a feeling that Tatsuya could help with that.

He starts to get food after Tatsuya, not getting all that much just yet. There was time for seconds later, if he were still hungry.

"We should... name one for Maya", he said after a moment. He missed her, but he didn't want to bring this nice date down too much. It was hard with Jun being.... Jun, but you know. "Maybe for each other, too. Haha, then we could say we were 'written in the stars'!"

Oh no, that's so cute. Tatsuya can't help but giggle at that.

"I like it," he says decisively. "All of it. Maybe we can find some for Lisa and Eikichi, too. I mean... Eikichi's always wanted to be a star, right?"

This is probably not what Eikichi meant. Probably not.

Jun chuckled at that, loving the way that Tatsuya looked at him, and how he looked when he giggled. "Yes, they all deserve to be stars", he responded with a light laugh. Despite everything, he was enjoying himself.

"I'll make a star map later, I think." He smiled, starting to eat a little bit. He was hungry of course, but was so much more interested in the stars, and sharing the moment with Tatsuya.

Tatsuya starts eating as well. The conversation is riveting, but he's a teenager and thus a bottomless stomach. He makes sure to swallow whatever is in his mouth before he talks, though.

"I'd love to see it when you do," he says encouragingly. "I'll even help if I can."

Jun gives a pleased hum at the taste. It wasn't the best of course, but it was probably the best that he's eaten since he'd gotten here. He leans against Tatsuya as he finishes a bite, taking his time here.

"Of course you can! I'd get bored if I just sat out here charting out stars all today." Even if he wasn't sure how much Tatsuya could physically help with, Jun would really love to have his presence. It would help him keep focus.

"It's a date then," Tatsuya says, his lips curving into a fond smile. "You and me and the stars, part two."

Right now being part one, of course. Tatsuya takes a bite of his food, pausing in conversation to give himself a chance to chew and swallow. As he does, he brushes a hand lightly against Jun's.

That gains another chuckle from Jun as he starts blushing again. Even on a date right now, he couldn't help but turn pink at the idea of one.

"I'd love that. Maybe we can have little snacks that time." He let his fingers be touched, only barely not grasping Tatsuya's hand. It was hard to resist, but they needed to eat first, and Jun was focusing on that for now.

Jun has more restraint than Tatsuya right now. He's definitely hungry, he wants to eat..... but Jun is right there, close enough to touch. And he really wants to touch Jun. He retracts his hand after a reluctant moment, though, his stomach briefly winning out for more food.

"Yeah, that sounds nice." He pauses briefly to nibble on a carrot. "We can work out the details later."

They have time.

Jun loved it honestly, and he wears an impish kind of grin as he watches Tatsuya, his eyes darting to look at that hand just before it was retracted.

"Mhm, right now I'm just... happy for this moment." He licked at his lips then, leaning back a little and leaning against Tatsuya once more.

"...You know..." he wasn't sure if he should really talk about this right now, but it was something that had made him a little happier? "...I was talking with one of the other Persona Users. One from our future, Ryuji."

"He said that the world we made was 'rad'."

There's a complicated mix of emotions running through Tatsuya as he hears that. There's sorrow for a world he'll never see again, even a little jealousy... a bittersweet sense of happiness... and it's that last one that wins out, and he smiles softly.

"Rad, huh...?" Tatsuya tastes the word in his mouth. "I'm glad. It's our world, after all... It should be."

Jun felt that same mix of feelings for a moment once. It was hard to think of how... in that new world, he was a different person. He might as well be dead, because he was never going to be the same there as he was now, and... was that any different from being dead in the end?

"It should." He laughs at that, wiping at his face before leaning in to kiss Tatsuya's cheek. "And they're from... like... ten years in the future, right?"

Tatsuya's cheeks tinge a faint pink when he feels the light pressure of Jun's kiss. "Ten years.... it seems like such a long time."

More than half his lived experiences.... It seems inconceivable.

"But it's nice that it endures."

Despite his mistakes.

"It is..." He agreed. It endured for more than a decade at least. Jun wouldn't be there to see it, not with the eyes he had now, nor the context, but that it continued to exist made him feel a little less like he had failed... well, everyone.

"Hey Tatsuya. What are we going to do if we're here for another ten years?"

Tatsuya's quiet for a moment as he considers that.

"We'll just take things a day at a time," he says at last. "We'll have a life together. With you by my side.... anything's worth that."

He leans over to brush a light kiss against Jun's lips.

Jun gives a contented hum as Tatsuya kisses his lips and he gives him a little kiss back. It tastes kind of nice, with the flavor of the meal lingering on both of their lips.

"I wish we could stay here forever. Selfish, I know, but... I just want to spend time with you", he said, sighing. "Make up for lost time, you know?" For the time when he was in Kasugayama High, separated by false memories and an unruly Persona.

Tatsuya hums lightly at that.

"We probably can't have forever," he says, even though he wishes it weren't true. "But I'll do my best to fit in as much lost time with you as we can take. No one can take right now from us."

Not even Nyarlathotep.

That gets a little huff from Jun as he pouts. 'Can't have forever' he says. Well, he's probably right. "A shame we can't go to the planet or something for a walk outside. I do miss the open air after these couple of months."

He shrugs then, getting back to the food. "Oh, by the way, Okumura-san told me that she's harvested some plants from the garden. So there's a start to something like outside, right?"

Jun's lover is a realist. It's a pity, truly.

"I'm hopeful about the planet," Tatsuya says as he gets back to his own food. "Maybe someday, we'll be able to go down."

He pauses as he considers the rest of what Jun said, then adds: "Real food.... I miss the taste of real food."

Jun doesn't mind. Generally, he is a pessimist as well, he just... hoped. He wanted to be an optimist. "I heard there were some kind of ships in a hangar here somewhere. Maybe eventually we'll get access enough to them to get to the planet's surface."

He smiles at the though, wondering what they could discover down there. "Imagine it. The crunch of real carrots!" He laughs a little, still eating the ones that were here. There were fine, really! But in the end he'd really prefer some real vegetables.

Tatsuya's eyes sparkle. "I'd love to pilot a real space ship!"

A real one, not created by rumours or with any world-ending strings attached.... Tatsuya presses his hand to his chest and sighs. Imagine.

Jun laughs at that, smiling. "I think you could do it pretty well." Honestly, he isn't sure whether or not Tatsuya being good with vehicles was just rumor stuff or not, but Tatsuya isn't dumb, at least. He could probably figure it out with enough time.

"We'll have to keep our eyes on the hangar, and on the network for anyone else who is getting in there."

Tatsuya could actually answer that question-- yes, it is rumour stuff, but it's become a part of him regardless-- but Jun didn't ask it, so he doesn't address that.

"I can handle that," Tatsuya says with a hum. "Maybe I should help try and get to the space ships."

He really, really wants to fly one now that he's thought of it.

That was fine, really. Jun was happy with just wondering for now. And honestly talking about the rumor stuff was still not something he wanted to do if he didn't have to.

"Yeah! I think that'd be great. I really want to get to the planet... and maybe document the plants there? I don't know, just some fresh air would be nice."

Honestly, Tatsuya doesn't want to talk about the rumour stuff either unless he really has to-- it's still a deeply upsetting topic with a tangle of complicated emotions.

"Fresh air would be so nice," Tatsuya agrees with a soft sigh. "Do you think any of the plants down there might be edible?"

How do people even check for that, he idly wonders.

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