[ witch...?

venus is caught unawares by her words, enough that she has to run over everything in her head to make sure she caught it after. terrible things- this girl's led a terrible life. god's unfavored, out of options- is that it? is that really what led her this far? ]

It's... not really like that. I haven't led a bad life, you know? I probably had an easier time than everyone else on this station. [ maybe that's an exaggeration. maybe not. the devil isn't omniscient; she doesn't know what struggles all the others here have faced. ] And I'm not brave. I'm not anything like that. I never really was a good boy.

[ at war with yourself. broken and unloved.

isn't that as good a starting point as any? ]

So I guess... my first sin was dissatisfaction. [ she's still smiling as she says it. she doesn't even seem to regret her actions, or even the words pouring out from her lips. ] It'd have to be, right? I mean, God gave me everything. A family that loved me. A roof over my head. A body without any real problems. And I couldn't even do the one thing they wanted me to do.

[ it's... nice, weirdly enough. it's nice to let the words spill freely for once, to not have to worry about whether or not it's okay to say any of this out loud. she knows it's probably just getting filed away to use against her, later. she knows nobody just listens to this kind of thing without expecting something in return.

but for right now, she's taking this woman of god - this witch? - at her word. ]