The relief hits him first, and then the shame for feeling relieved in the first place. He hadn't realised just how much he needed Bobbie to understand. Amos never had. And Naomi and Holden - they just never talked about it. Never asked.

So he was relieved, and guilty, and he nodded his head, letting out a breath. Lowering his eyes.

"I meant to. That's how I knew, when you said -- I'd been planning it. Tryin' to figure out exactly what to say. I thought maybe - thought maybe there was a chance she'd understand, but--"

His shoulders slumped. "She never has. Don't know why I'd think she would now."