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[OPEN]I Ain't Seen No Talkin' Snake

» WHO? Sakuya Kira and OPEN
» WHEN? Honestly probably sporadically throughout the month.
» WHERE? Deck 5 hallway
» WHAT? Kira has 7g of weed left he's going to try to burn through, taking anyone along with him that he can.
» WARNINGS? Teens smoking weed, Kira probably hitting on people, bad language ofc. Anything more TBA!!!

[Welp, he got this baggie of weed, so he was going to smoke it. The problem was that Kira only had a few friends on the station, and he wasn't sure who he should call up for this. Venus, sure, but anyone else?

Whatever. He had manage to get the replicators to make him an apple by some miracle or another, and while it was probably not the best tasting apple, that didn't matter. He'd made a bowl with the top of it, poked all the way through it at an angle, and shoved some of the green stuff into the top. He had to get it started before he started scoping out potential smoking buddies though, and so Kira took a seat against the wall, having to shift as his four black wings manifested behind him.

What he wouldn't give for a lighter.

Without one though, he was his own source of flame, and he lit the end of his thumb, using that to get in a couple of puffs, until the smoke seemed to be flowing through well enough. Good, he's still got it. Whatever 'it' was.

He took a long drag, just... absorbing it as he holds his breath, his head rolling back and resting against the metal wall of the hallway before he let out the plume of smoke with a content sigh. When he finally heard someone else coming along, he gave a devilish grin, like you might expect from Lucifer, his four black feathered wings curling around him so that they took up less space behind his back as he held out the apple.]

Hey bud. I'm gonna need some help gettin' through all of this.

[He didn't care WHAT you looked like. Anyone on the station could probably use some chill, right? Sure.]

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...Oh. I-- I didn't think they were real? I'm not even sure if God is real.

[9S hangs his head, and he brings a hand up to rub at his temple and hide his eyes. So it's not like Venus at all. Actually, it's much worse. He's so stupid. Stupid stupid stupid.

Emotions are prohibited, right? Then why is he so bad at it?]

Crow... I still think of you as human.

Oh they're real, and they're right pricks, I tell ya. The whole lot of them, always with their rules and regulations. Why you think mine are black? Turns out I'm a fuckup even when I'm an angel.

[His smile softens a little then. This is a very strange reaction, you know? True, he wasn't forthcoming about not being human, but it wasn't like he was an eel in a person suit or anything like that. Why did Yuki look and sound so betrayed by him not being human...?]

I 'preciate it, you know? Being human meant a lot to me.

...

[He's not sure if he's being serious or not. It all sounds so surreal.]

Okay, but I thought angels were...supposed to be in the sky, or something? And aren't you kind of young?

[He'd probably be more serious about it if he wasn't smoking, but he WAS and he was just going to grab another puff as Yuki is speaking.]

Yeah, I'm kinda young. I mean, for if I was gonna die of old age, right?

['In the sky' though, huh? Humans really did have weird ideas. That's where he figured Yuki got his ideas from.]

But 'course I didn't. I ain't too bummed out about it though, it's cool.

I always thought that once a human died, that was it...

[9S knits his brow, his skepticism clear even if he wants to believe Crow. There's a lot that doesn't add up, but accepting the idea of Crow being an "angel" was a lot easier after seeing people like Venus roaming around. It was also easier to deal with than the fact he felt lied to.

No, he wasn't lied to. He was the one who assumed incorrect.]

What are you doing?

[This time the question isn't heavy or laden with subtext. He just wants to know what he's doing with that apple.]

You really don't know...?

[Kira actually was a little curious. He supposed... there were plenty of porn videos, but not as much about smoking pot, especially out of an apple.]

I'm smoking pot. Marijuana. Weed. Cannabis.

[Maybe one of those would ring a bell. Who knows? Either way, he's going to offer the apple to Yuki, just to look it over if he wanted to. There was a hole all the way through it, and one on top where the weed sat, packed in and black from being lit aflame.]

Isn't that a drug? It sure has a lot of names...

[9S takes the apple without question and barely looks it over before he just puts his mouth right to it and breathes in deeply.

A second later he coughs a few times as he pulls away, eyes watering.]

W-what in the world? You actually like this stuff?

[That's what he said about the alcohol too, and what he'll say about coffee next.]

[Kira bursts out laughing at the coughing. God, it is so funny every time he sees someone do it, and it is so strange that Yuki would actually cough, being an android. Still.

Kira just wears a big grin as he answers.]

Yeah! It's great. Y'see... this thing, you can smoke it, and it makes you feel... Hm. Well, it's different for almost everyone but for me it's like... having helium in my head. I feel like I'm floating, like I'm sitting underwater, but I can still breathe.

It makes me care less about everything, and it makes any aches and pains go away, too.

[Like bring drunk, but slower and less balance issues.]

[9S gives the apple another, more thoughtful look. He coughs again, and clears his throat before he speaks. There's a certain sardonic tinge to his voice.]

That sounds too good to be true, you know.

[If he could care less, and get rid of this aching in his chest, even for a little bit... 9S had no reservations.

But can he really trust him? Crow lied to him--

9S shakes his head. Didn't he just say he'd still think of him as human? He's not sure which is worthy of harsher punishment; having stepped over the line and copulated with a human, or having done it with someone who wasn't quite human.

He's sure 2B would disapprove either way. Emotions are prohibited.

9S exhales and takes in another, this time slower lungful of smoke. He only coughs a little as he exhales, and brings a hand up to press to his temple.] Oof.

[Kira just replies to Yuki's skepticism with a little grin.]

Well, you got the shitty smell, and the taste is terrible. So it's kinda got a give and take. And in all fairness, I've kinda gotten used to it enough that I associate it with feeling calm and good, so like. It's all good to me.

[He shrugged. It sounded too good to be true because there were plenty of downsides.]

Also, kinda like being drunk, you can't really react well when you're high, so like. Don't plan on doing anything super important until it wears off.

[He just watches as Yuki takes another hit. Better.]

And it's not like it solves any problems. Just makes you calmer about them. [Unless you get anxious instead, which can happen.]

[He clears his throat again, shaking his head.]

That's not a problem, I don't have any plans.

[9S knows full well that this won't solve anything, but he doesn't know what to do with himself. There are no machines to fight. There's no purpose for him here. The humans function just fine without him.

He finally takes a seat beside Crow, his back to the wall and his knees drawn up in front of him. The apple is still in his hands as he considers it.] Hey, Crow...?

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[Kira laughs again, obviously pretty giggly by now. He's having a pretty good time, having gone through a little bit of his bag of weed already. It made conversing just that much more fun.

He watches as Yuki sits next to him against the wall, wearing a big grin.]

Yeah, Yuki? What's up?

[9S hasn't developed any sort of buzz himself, not with the two lackluster attempts he had. He was left feeling just as empty as before, but at least sitting near Crow made things a little better. He wanted to talk about 2B, about how much he missed her... About how lonely he felt.

But he can't talk about any of that, because even if he did, would Crow even know who she was?

9S' shoulders sag, his expression downcast and painfully earnest. When he finally speaks, what comes out surprises even him. Not that he felt it, but that he'd said it at all. It had been nagging at him, and he had to know. He had to know how he should process what they'd done together.]

Why me...? I mean, there's other humans here...and I was only made to fight. Nothing more, and nothing else.

[Then, the rest spills out.]

2B went home, so why am I still here?

[Kira is actually taken a little by surprise at the question. Why him...? Why did they have sex, is what he's guessing what he was asking.]

I dunno. I thought... I mean I thought you wanted to? Like. I consider you a person as much as any human, Yuki. And you know... [He was rambling a little, of course. That happened when he smoked.] ...You know it's. It's like.

Humans were made for things too, but they got these wants and feelings and so sometimes they get off the path and find something else they want more. You know what I mean? I dunno. Like you can choose what you wanna do, even if you were made for something, right?

[He pauses then, thinking less about his explanation of why(which he might have lost the plot of a little) and more about that last bit. '2B went home', he'd said. An android like him, probably.]

My dude, we don't even know why we were here in the first place. Maybe if we're lucky, 2B went back wherever you guys are from. And maybe you're just here waiting for a little while cuz who the fuck knows how this shit works?

I--I did! I mean, I do... [9S interjects briefly at the implication that he might have not enjoyed their night together, before falling back to allow Crow to finish. He fiddles with the apple in his hands, his lips tugging into an ever deeper frown.]

No, I don't... I've never had a choice before. I could only ever imagine what it might be like to live peacefully. [He finally answers, and he feels a numbness spread over him. To the very tips of his fingers, he feels empty.]

It's nice here, being around my creators... I don't have to fight, and I get to spend time with you! But...

[Something's missing.]

If I go back home, I'll just be killed and start all over again. 2B probably already has another partner, maybe even another 9S.

I mean that's true for a lot of us, I think. Even humans. Sometimes you get stuck in situations, and you get like... forced to be someone you don't wanna be. Like a kid in a bad home situation, gotta be an adult even if they just wanna play.

Or someone in a war, who doesn't wanna have to kill others, just wants to have the freedom to live and love as they will.

[He sighs then, leaning against Yuki a little and petting his arm a little. It's supposed to be soothing. He's not sure if it actually is but it's SUPPOSED to be.]

...Why would you be killed...? And what do you mean 'start all over again'?

[It doesn't make him feel much better to hear that humans have to suffer too, or that they can get trapped in situations that stop them from being who they want to be. It's relatable, and that makes it hurt.

9S lifts his head as he feels a gentle pressure against him, and the soft touch of fingers against his arm. He wants to lean into it, but doesn't. Instead, he swallows back the lump in his throat. There's a hollowness to his voice as he speaks, his fingers digging into the apple.]

2B was assigned my partner so she could keep an eye on me. She hasn't told me herself, but... She's not that hard to read once you get to know her. I know they're just waiting for me to mess up, haha, and then she'll execute me. It's happened before. I don't know if it was her, but I know I have gaps in my memory.

[Well don't feel BAD either. It was just a universal thing that happened. People of all kinds have to sometimes do things they didn't like or didn't want to do.

Now while Kira was high was both the best and worst time to tell Kira that kind of thing. Best because he can't just keep himself silent and allow Yukito just say whatever but also worst for the SAME REASON. He was a little more unfiltered than usual.]

Hey man, that's fucked up as hell. Like.

What? They're waiting for you to fuck up so your partner can kill you??? Like, over and over again? Why... bother? Do you know what I mean? [He certainly can't find words to explain it.]

You still like her though, dontcha?

I guess there's just something they don't want me to know, huh?

[9S smiles, but what starts as bitter soon turns nostalgic.]

2B was the first partner I got to work with side-by-side. She's kind of cold, and she doesn't talk much, but she's really cool and cares more than she lets on. Like...there wasn't any reason for her to insist they send me up to the Bunker for repairs. When an android breaks down on the surface, it's more common to have them executed.

[He rubs at his face, voice wavering.]

I just enjoyed her company. We were on a mission together, but it wasn't all work. What if I never see her again?

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[Mh, that is complicated. He definitely likes her. Maybe even a lot. Maybe even loves? Kira wasn't sure without knowing more, but definitely there is a fondness. He knew how it went. Sometimes you just can't help it, no matter the situation that you are in.]

You'll see her again. [Kira says it with conviction, nodding.]

You're kind of literally made for each other after all, right? And if she cares enough to insist you are repaired, then I bet you she's trying to get back to you too.

[His hand runs down Yuki's arm then, going to lace his fingers in with the android's before he leaned in and pressed a chaste kiss to his cheek.]

You really think so...? [He can't help sounding hopeful. It's a nice thought, and it makes some of the aching in his chest recede, if only a little.

9S' gaze travels downward, to watch as Crow reaches out for his hand. He squeezes it lightly in response, feeling the hint of a pulse just beneath his skin. Humans really were amazing creatures, and even if Crow wasn't quite human anymore... He really wanted to think of him as one.]

Huh? [He blinks an looks up at the kiss, and then lets out a broken sort of laugh, wiping at his eyes again. It's all he can do, after opening himself up like that and actually finding the reassurance he was looking for.] Thanks, Crow.

[Kira laughed a little at the way Yuki wiped at his face as if he were crying, or beginning to. It was so very human of him, all of these complex duties and emotions and the need for someone to talk to about it.]

Hey man, anytime. I'm here for ya.

[He nodded then to the apple in Yuki's hand.]

You wanna give that another shot? Then maybe you can think about something else. Something... nice? I can talk about whatever with you. I ain't got any issues with that.

Oh, right. [It takes 9S a moment before he fully registers the suggestion.] Yeah, I do!

[Even if he felt a little better, he still wanted to try it; he wanted to care less, and make all his aches and pains go away. That's how Crow had put it.

9S lifts the apple back up to his lips and breathes in deep. He doesn't cough at all this time, but he does squeeze his eyes shut as if trying to come to terms with the odd sensation that clouds his head.

Unless Crow stops him, he'll keep gripping his hand too.]

Sooo...how do you know if it's working?

[Kira smiled as he watched Yuki take his next puff. How interesting. It was do crazy that he could drink and get drunk, and smoke and get high, just like a human!]

Ahhh man, you're so cool! [How was it even possible?!

And yeah, Kira wasn't going to stop him from holding his hand either. It was kind of nice? That's not weird.]

You will feel it. Not obviously at first, but I mean. You'll start laughing at dumb things, probably. Thinking about nothing. Whatever. You'll get it.

Haha... I'm not that cool.

[But he's definitely smiling, and while it's still tinged by sadness, he's soaking in the compliment. His thumb idly strokes the back of Crow's hand.]

Okay. I guess I'll keep trying? [He's not sure he does get it, but 9S goes ahead and tries again, exhaling slower this time, his eyes kept gently shut. Now, he's starting to feel...something?

9S opens his eyes, half-lidded as he considers the apple.] Huh.

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