[It's only been a few days since Connor's been here, but already he's been an incredible help. It has changed everything for Alucard in the best of ways knowing he can have a safe way to drink consistently without putting himself or anyone else in danger.
But he hasn't forgotten. That.
Somehow now, more than ever, he can't block the imagery in his mind. Connor testing the blood, then offering his fingers. It was practical, practical, nothing more, and yet didn't Alucard relish sucking them clean? And wouldn't he do so much more--
He has no business thinking of it. Any of it. No one owes him anything. Alucard has resisted everything, every temptation, every shred of desire in his body because his duty needs him more than anything he could ever hope or want. He can't afford it, he can't do that to anyone, can't can't can't...
So he does his best to drive the memory out of his mind. Why is it so much harder to do for the past few days?
Think practically. Clearly. This is a scientific test for a meal. Nothing more.
So he has called Connor up to the clinic, to test the next batch of blood for him. The door is open for the android, a silent invitation.]
hall om mig | closed to connor
But he hasn't forgotten. That.
Somehow now, more than ever, he can't block the imagery in his mind. Connor testing the blood, then offering his fingers. It was practical, practical, nothing more, and yet didn't Alucard relish sucking them clean? And wouldn't he do so much more--
He has no business thinking of it. Any of it. No one owes him anything. Alucard has resisted everything, every temptation, every shred of desire in his body because his duty needs him more than anything he could ever hope or want. He can't afford it, he can't do that to anyone, can't can't can't...
So he does his best to drive the memory out of his mind. Why is it so much harder to do for the past few days?
Think practically. Clearly. This is a scientific test for a meal. Nothing more.
So he has called Connor up to the clinic, to test the next batch of blood for him. The door is open for the android, a silent invitation.]
I appreciate you coming by.
[Civil. Polite. Nothing else.]
If you don't mind testing this for me?