[ Alex, in most situations, had a tendency to glance to other people, to see what their reactions were to the information he was being given, and use that to give him some context for his own feelings. Especially when he was worried that someone else was going to take it badly.
He did not look at Amos for this entire revelation.
Not because he didn't care about what his friend thought, but more because he didn't have enough room for anyone else's feelings alongside his own. He'd been worried, when Naomi said she needed to talk to them - had figured it had something to do with the cryptic things Ashford had said on the network. But he hadn't guessed this.
He hadn't in a million years guessed this.
His arms were locked tight against his chest, his face pulled into a deep enough frown that it wiped all friendliness from his face. He could hear his own blood pounding in his ears to the point where if she tried to say anything else after "to Fred Johnson", he barely even heard it. ]
We destroyed it.
[ Disbelief, first, but it was hard and it was angry. It was him not wanting to believe, more than anything else. ]
We all decided, and we destroyed it. We shot it into the god damned sun.
no subject
He did not look at Amos for this entire revelation.
Not because he didn't care about what his friend thought, but more because he didn't have enough room for anyone else's feelings alongside his own. He'd been worried, when Naomi said she needed to talk to them - had figured it had something to do with the cryptic things Ashford had said on the network. But he hadn't guessed this.
He hadn't in a million years guessed this.
His arms were locked tight against his chest, his face pulled into a deep enough frown that it wiped all friendliness from his face. He could hear his own blood pounding in his ears to the point where if she tried to say anything else after "to Fred Johnson", he barely even heard it. ]
We destroyed it.
[ Disbelief, first, but it was hard and it was angry. It was him not wanting to believe, more than anything else. ]
We all decided, and we destroyed it. We shot it into the god damned sun.