upon the surface of the divine (closed)

[wingstosee]

» WHO? Venus (wingstosee) and Jupiter (bringsthestorm)
» WHEN? 5/13, later on in the day.
» WHERE? Room 4.29
» WHAT? Insecure devils talking about life and also cuddling in the process.
» WARNINGS? Teenage girls smooching??? Also mild blasphemy.


[ akira's apologized, and his friend's okay, and even if that's all well and good she can't help but hurt when she thinks about it. it's not that she's surprised, or even that akira is being an asshole about anything. actually, it was a good apology and an even better conversation? but she feels sort of... sad. she hurts for akira, thinking about it, way more than she hurts for herself right now. and when she's been sitting on that for a few hours, and it's starting to eat away at her gut, she gives up and heads back to the room.

it's not much. it's really not much. but she sort of needs reassurance now, and there's only one way she really knows how to get it. ]

Hey. [ her voice is quiet as she steps through the door. jupiter's in the room, and neptune's gone, and maybe that's for the best - she's put a lot on neptune lately, with the whole vampire situation. she's trying to smile, but she seems- a little more off than usual. ] Everything okay over here?

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walks in carrying a dunkin donuts brand iced coffee

[bringsthestorm]

[Jupiter looks up from her place sprawled on the bed, having been enjoying the brief respite of being able to lounge freely, even if she didn't mind sleeping with her two girlfriends every night — it's just nice to have a few hours of personal space and all, y'know? It could get pretty cramped with the three of them at night. She sits up though when Venus fully enters, sensing something was amiss.]

Everything's good, holding down the fort and all. What about you?

rolls in late with instant coffee mix

[wingstosee]

Oh, uh. Same, I guess? Nothing's really. Just. Thinking about some things.

[ she leans back against the door gently, looking down to the ground and crossing her arms. it's not fair to just... dump everything on jupiter right now, you know?

but she still sort of wants to at least... you know, get some sort of reassurance. she wants to be looked at, at least. ]

...can I sit next to you?

[bringsthestorm]

[Jupiter scoots over and pats the spot down next to her, giving Venus a reassuring smile.]

Lemme hear it.

[Her voice is gently encouraging, and a hand takes Venus' and gently gives a tug to encourage her to come towards her.]

[wingstosee]

Haha. If you're sure?

[ but she can't help the way she smiles as jupiter's hand takes hers. she squeezes lightly back, letting the tug guide her over to the bed and delicately taking a seat next to the other girl. it's weird, how normal it feels to be able to do this? she doesn't want to take this kind of thing for granted. ]

It's sort of... I don't know. I guess it's kind of heavy? But not too bad. [ she bites her lip, leaning a bit against jupiter, before- ] There's- other devils, here. Did you know?

[bringsthestorm]

Yeah, I'm sure. I've had my fill of sitting here mindlessly scrolling through everyone's posts.

[Several arms wrap around Venus in a gentle embrace, while her own flesh and blood ones sit in her lap for the time being. Jupiter looks surprised for a moment at what she says, then pleasantly thoughtful.]

I didn't. I talked to someone for a bit that was kind of on the same page as us, but I think he was just a human. You met some, then?

[wingstosee]

[ oh. oh. multiple arms embrace her, and venus can't help the little exhale - somewhere between laughter and a sigh. it's a lot. it's still a lot, but it's a nice sort of lot. ]

Yeah. I can't... really say who they are? I mean, they asked me not to. They're not- [ and this is sort of the core of it. ] They don't want people to know. They don't have... others, not like we do. You know?

[ it hurts just to think about. and it's... sort of why she's here. she needed that reminder. ]

[bringsthestorm]

That's too bad — it might've been nice to have a little group going, or something. Those of us who can actually get each other. I mean... we three have each other of course, but it's always nice to know you're not the only ones past that, especially when you're in a place surrounded by humans. Y'know?

Well, maybe I'll find out eventually. The station's not exactly that big... maybe by then they'll be more willing to accept themselves. Though if they're devils, I'm surprised they don't — I feel bad for them, that they can't be honest to who they are.

[Though maybe it's kind of like how the three of them aren't entirely as much devils as they used to be? Jupiter still found herself facing some of her old problems here despite it, when she'd been so entirely free when she'd shed her skin back home.]

[wingstosee]

Right? That's what I was thinking, too.

[ but it's not quite that simple, is it? the rest of jupiter's words sort of weigh down on her, like a heavy fog, and she wallows in the thought for a moment before she speaks again. ]

They don't have someone like we do. One of them, he- [ she winces. that's already saying too much, isn't it? secrets are supposed to be secrets. ] -has someone else here. A human. And... he loves him.

[ she doesn't know that for sure. how could she? but- she saw him, running to save him. snarling and shouting, an overwhelming presence of anger at the thought that someone might have hurt the other. and when she thinks about what would happen if she saw jupiter or neptune, bleeding on the ground...

what else could it be? ]

[bringsthestorm]

Oh man, that's... pretty rough.

[She folds her arms behind her head, leaning back against the back of the bed and considering the thought gently, letting it marinate in her mind for a moment.]

I mean, I guess we haven't really been devils long enough to really be any sort of experts on the matter? But. Humans are supposed to rebuke the devil and all that, y'know? I'm not sure how that can really... work.

[wingstosee]

I know that. [ how could she not? ] But I don't want to? I want things to work out. Even if... you know.

[ even if it's impossible. she doesn't say it aloud - she doesn't even want to think it. but it's there and there's nothing to be done about it. she leans closer to jupiter, against the arms until their shoulders are touching and one of jupiter's arms is behind her head. ]

...sorry. This is going to sound kind of stupid? But- I'm really, really glad you're here. With me.

[ jupiter, neptune- they're so important to her. they're so, so important to her and she doesn't even have words to describe it. ]

[bringsthestorm]

I'm sure they'll be fine. Especially in a place like this? Things don't seem to work quite the same way as they did back home.

[Jupiter isn't quite sure if her words will be true, but they're the right words to say at the moment, she feels. She wraps the arm around Venus' shoulder, pulling her in a little closer and resting her head against Venus'.]

Nah, that's not stupid. I wouldn't have it any other way.

[wingstosee]

Maybe. I hope? They... the human. He already knows about the devil.

[ it's so hard to say things like this - keeping names down, keeping faces out of it. she can still remember akira crying, wiping at his eyes with the base of his palm. she can still remember ryo shrieking, picking through glass and trying to find something to hurt her with.

it's a lot. she shivers a bit, leaning into the touch as much as she can. ]

It's not that. I mean- same? Obviously. I feel that too. But, I mean- haha. [ it's a helpless little laugh - not quite upset, but not happy either, just an frustrated little thing. ] This is why I said it'd sound stupid. I'm never any good at talking so I just sort of say things until maybe something sounds right?

[ deep breaths, venus. she breathes in, taking in the sight - the feeling - of jupiter resting against her like this. she can see her from a thousand different angles, from the corner of some eyes and head-on from others. it's... nice. it's nice to know they're all here for each other, and that even if venus says something dumb it's probably not going to end.

so she goes ahead and says it. ]

Are we- you know, dating?

[bringsthestorm]

Well, there you go! If he already knows and is accepting of it, that's gotta be a positive thing.

[Jupiter listens patiently as Venus continues on though, knowing the other girl had a tendency to ramble until she ultimately landed on what she wanted to say. But when Venus finally stumbles out with what she was trying to ask, Jupiter has to suppress a laugh — it comes out as a gentle "pfftt", and she presses a hand to her mouth for a moment.]

Sorry, sorry — I don't mean to laugh at you or anything. Venus, I just thought that was like... obvious at this point? I mean...

[Her hand gestures towards... well, the entire room. Their living situation. How they were sitting together. Everything.]

I'm pretty sure Neptune is on the exact same page, unless I'm living in a fantasy world over here. Which is to say, well, yeah. We are.

[wingstosee]

Oh my god?

[ she really can't say much more than that as a laugh comes out from jupiter. venus doesn't look... hurt, exactly. definitely sort of alarmed? but that's not anything new, and it slowly goes away as jupiter explains herself - replaced with a small but bright, intensely warm smile. ]

Oh. I mean, I sort of thought? But I didn't really want to drag either of you into it if that's not what you were thinking. Not that you wouldn't be okay with- you know, me? But I didn't really know if dating was the kind of thing you were looking for.

[ she's not sure it was the kind of thing she was looking for, even. but hearing jupiter affirm it - "we are" - is so much of a relief, so much weight lifted off her, that she's not sure it matters. ]

But... I'm glad. [ it's such a small statement, such a passive word, that she feels like she has to keep going. ] Like, really glad. I kind of... think I want to cry? Maybe? But in a good way.

[ she's not losing control of anything. even if her eyes are misting up, on her wings and face and all over. but if she did lose it here, it's so, so nice to know - they wouldn't judge her.

she really does have the best girlfriends in the world. ]

Hey, is it- um. Is it alright if I kiss you?