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( OPEN & CLOSED ) Always thought I knew the song I just memorized the words.

» WHO? JYN ERSO & YOU
» WHEN? JULY 12 & onward
» WHERE? basically all over the station.
» WHAT? jyn harassing everyone like it's her JOB.
» WARNINGS? ^^ see above

» i was praying eagerly to sleep (CHAPEL)

[ jyn doesn't consider herself a religious person. but in retrospect, there was very little of her life that hadn't been accounted for. planned out carefully between her father and who she could only assume was a righteous god. or maybe that's really what they call the force, something beyond oneself that moves the board beneath her feet. she looks down at her given boots and frowns, tapping them together so the red gravity light engages. it isn't how she's used to traveling in space, but the inconsistency is almost comforting in a way. it's the way jyn's life has always gone: uprooted and taken on the next great adventure before she can wrap her head around it one way or another.

she reads the words in the wall, some she understands. some she doesn't. turning to the person nearest her, she waits until they look up from their prayers, her gaze desperate as it seeks theirs. ]

Do you believe in fate? [ it's urgent. she'll wait intently for a reply, wrists clasped between her knees as she pitches forward insistently. ]

» thinking about a garden i left (PLANTS)

[ it's inspiring, to see everyone working together after the garden's discovery. it reminds her of her parents' farm, of long peaceful days in the sun. jyn crouches by the bucket of intermingled herb seeds and smiles as she identifies each one by sight, separating them out so the scientists and experts can do their testing. it's a simple task, but one she clearly takes joy in, though some might find it tedious. ]

It's amazing how even all the way out here... away from everyone and everything we care about, human nature still prevails. Everyone here helps each other.

[ well she's sure not everyone, but there are a good number of people here. it's heartening to see. she was told the bridge was first, then the chapel, and now this place. none of them are much now, but she knows with human ingenuity they will flourish soon. she wants to be a part of seeing that through, addressing anyone who will listen: ]

So - what's next?

» it was a whole new world (BRIDGE)

[ it isn't like the bridge of any ship she's ever been on, truthfully, and jyn instantly knows she's out of her element. she feels like a little kid again, following her father to work. she squints up at the big screen, the commander everyone here calls "ghost" frozen into frame. jyn looks down at the uniform she's wearing, the same exact one donned by their mystery woman. it's hard not to feel a certain solidarity with her, or just to wonder what was going through her mind at this exact moment.

jyn un-pauses the video just as someone walks in, and she flips around to great them. ] Is she the woman we heard in the communicator? She tried to save the world? [ what does that even mean? ]

» truth grew through like a bramble weed (OBSV DECK)

[ jyn arrived shortly after the music stopped, but she'd heard about that from everyone she'd encountered over the past few days. to someone who didn't go through it, it's hard not to think of it as silly. she'd tried not to smile, but a few people had gotten cross with her. it's merely difficult for her to see this place as evil when she'd only seen the good so far. the light in other's hearts as they sacrificed for one another. it's what she and her father had fought for. she leans forward until her forehead presses against the glass, hands clasped behind her back as she stares at the planet below. is this the world ghost tried to save?

after a while she leans back onto her heels, accidentally engaging the mag-locks again. she'll get the hang of all this fancy space tech someday. for now, she pulls out her mother's necklace from where it had been concealed in her jumpsuit, always fastened up to the highest point. she touches the crystal with reverence, her eyelids growing heavy with memory. ]

Perhaps we've got it all wrong. What if these people were just like us, once? [ she's thinking aloud, not actually concerned if anyone is close enough to hear her. she's referring to the original crew of reverie terminal. ] Lost, scared, alone. They deserved rescue just as much as we do.

» there was nothing hiding you from me (BODHI)

[ it had been natural, to claim the room next to his. they were the only evidence of rogue one aboard, after all, and teammates had to stick together. jyn found herself craving his presence at all hours, needing a dose of the familiar at steady intervals. it's what has her wrapping on the wall between their rooms, face vulnerable and young when she asks: ] Bodhi, are you awake?

[ it isn't too late yet, but it's far past dinner and sundown. she knows how to get into his room, but maybe this is safer somehow. it gives her time and saves her face until she can school her expression into something slightly more neutral. she's supposed to be strong for him, a leader. someone he can count on for all things. she would sorely hate to let him down. ]

The discovery on Deck One has me thinking... Isn't there a locked door on this deck?

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[ he's not asleep, but sitting near the edge of his bed, looking over the network, occasionally glancing up at the wall with the door when Jyn enters. ]

There is.

[ the locked doors had Bodhi a little nervous, given his first encounter with one had led him to be stuck inside of the metal for better part of an hour but it seems as if that danger has passed with others being able to get in with less incident. either way, he nods, sitting up straight. ]

The map that was found on the bridge said it's a library.

[ jyn leans her hand against the wall and then the side of her face as if she could slide right through it. and still she remains behind her locked door, though she longs for his company. ]

Maybe it will tell us the history of this place and the people who made it. No one seems to think that's important.

[ the implication being that she does. she has a feeling bodhi might be of a similar mind. ]

If we can figure out the history behind it, we may better understand everything that goes on here now. [ it's a shared frustration - Bodhi doesn't know any better than she does. everyone is fixated on finding other things - no less important, but ... he stares at the wall between them. a habit he's not likely to break soon, wanting to see her to make sure she's still there. hearing Jyn talk is fine and all, but it's not the same as a visual contact. ]

The thing is, we'd have to crack the code to get in there.

[ which could take weeks. ]

[ she spreads her fingers wide against the wall and leans in a little more, shutting her eyes as she lets his familiar voice wash over her. ]

You have no idea how nice it is to hear you say that.

[ it's all she's wanted since she came here, to know of the peopele who came before. ]

Don't go anywhere, I'm coming over.

[ she launches into action, tying back her hair with a bit of string she'd found and glancing in the bathroom mirror to make sure everything is in order. no kohl for her eyes and she feels she looks much younger than her years even, but she zips up the jumpsuit a little farther and bites into her lip. that will have to do. then she's grabbing her communicator off the bed and strapping it on as she makes her way next door and tries not to let her nerves show. ]

It's me. [ she calls unnecessarily, tapping the toe of her boot against his door. ] It's Jyn.

[ his lips quirk into a slight smile at that. ] Not going anywhere.

[ the only difference is he's standing, when Jyn finally taps the door and crossing over to the door to unlock and open it and face her. his loose braid is falling out around his face but he smiles in full and steps aside to let her in. ]

Hey. [ and he picks up right where they left off. ] So do you want to go down and have a look?

[ she finds herself smiling, a riotous twitch of her lips that won't quit. jyn reaches out to touch at his shoulder, as if to prove to herself he's really there. that he won't fade away. ]

Yes. Desperately.

[ he glances at her hand, the contact is enough of a reassurance to that. Bodhi nods. ] Let me get my boots on and we'll go have a look.

[ which he does quickly, pulling the boots from beside his bed and getting them on. with another nod. he then attempts to tuck his hair back into the braid and out of his face and steps back beside her. ]

Alright, so it's just down at the end of the hall from here. Shall we?

We shall. [ she says warmly, threading her arm through his as has become habitual by now already. onward and upward. once they've cleared bodhi's door, she asks something more serious. ] Was it awful? The music.

[ as they walk, Bodhi lapses into a moment of silence at the question. he's not sure how to describe it. ]

It was awful. Believe me when I say I'm glad that you were spared that experience. [ it might sound dramatic, a week of music played. but it wasn't just that, it was a week of not sleeping, seeing things that weren't there -- ] I'm sure I'm not the only one who felt like I was losing my mind.

[ she might feel the slight shudder at the thought, he'd come back from it, just as he had before. after Saw's monster, but... would he be strong enough a third time? ]

[ it does sound that way, a little. but she also knows bodhi is intimately familiar with what it means to lose one's mind. she clutches at his elbow a little tighter as he describes the experience. ]

You're whole again now, for that I'm grateful most of all.

[ Jyn knew, how close he'd come. acknowledging it, even now - it feels a marvel he hasn't.

he swallows, looking down at the ground as they walk. really here, not imagining it. not like before. that's really her hand on his arm. ]

So am I.

I saw things. People, mostly.

What sorts of things? [ she grips his arm a little harder without noticing, protective even now - even here. ] People from here?

[ she swings around to face him as they approach the door in need of opening, her other hand reaching for his other arm to hold him at arms' length and search his eyes for what might have plagued him. for what now still could. ]

Not from here. [ Bodhi averts and lowers his gaze to her boots even as she tries to keep it - feeling suddenly as if he should not have mentioned it at all. ]

People that I knew... from before, mostly.

[ her hand moves down his arm when he won't look at her, lacing their fingers in solidarity. ]

Did you see my father, Bodhi?

[ for a moment, Bodhi raises his eyes briefly to hers but settles for staring down at their hands.

he nods, aware of the tightness in his throat that he has to swallow down to respond, voice low. ]

Yes. I saw him.

[ part of why he could barely believe that Jyn had arrived, when she did. ]

I think on some level I knew it wasn't him, but...

[ he trails off, shrugging a little helplessly. ]

[ her eyes fill with tears they both know she won't shed and she nods, squeezing his hand in a near-crushing grip. ]

It's just a mind trick. Whatever he said to you... Doesn't matter now. We're going to get through this, together. Okay?

I know we will, it's just -- [ it doesn't matter, except it does. to him, at least. finally, he meets her eyes. ]

He wasn't saying anything to me that I wasn't already telling myself.

That's right. Even he would want us to focus now.

[ jyn points to the door they're in front of now, dragging bodhi the few remaining paces by their joined hands. ]

Show me how to access the panel and I'll see what I can do.

[ she's right. Bodhi nods, and clears his throat as she pulls him over to the door. better to focus on here and now and what they have to do than... all of that.

with another brief squeeze, he lets go of her hands to ... try the door. hesitantly. it's locked, obviously - that hasn't changed. there's no pull through the metal.

then gets to showing her how to access the panel.

that's the easy part. ]

It's the code that we're missing. We could just... start putting numbers in until it works, but we'd be here a while.

[ her hands immediately wring like they miss the weight of his, but then he's watching him pull the compartment out with the display and it reminds her all too strongly of life before rogue one. jyn crouches down next to him with a raised eyebrow as her fingers reach for the number pad, hovering before making contact. ]

Did you have something better to do?

[ it's very much a tease. she thinks if her friend had a secret life hee she would have sussed it out already. he isn't a terribly hard person to read, especially not for her. ]

No, no. [ he replies quickly then continues, completely deadpan: ] I'm sure that the observation deck won't miss my presence all that much.

[ he'd been a little aimless, trying to help - but in smaller ways. assisting those who were doing bigger, more important things. Bodhi was good at taking a support role and keeping to the sidelines.

but a lot of time was spent there. it was, unsurprisingly a good place to sit and ~~mope~~ think. ]

Oh, I don't know... Perhaps the stars watch us as closely as we watch them.

[ it's a very galen thing to say, though he'd never said it. or if he had, not to her. jyn licks her lips and puts in 0000. denied. 1111. denied. she figures if she goes on this way she'll eventually think of a smarter way to guess. but how could she? the other codes had seemed random to her and not at all like the ones the empire used. ]

If so, they'd probably know what happened to the original crew here. [ Bodhi frowns, watching her put in the codes. it's fortunate the pad panel doesn't lock up if you put out enough incorrect ones. ]

[ she hesitates anyway, knowing it won't be a solid block of one number anyway, but she wanted to see if the panel would lock her out. it doesn't seem to register the wrong guesses at all, always going back to the landing screen. ]

That's a good point, Bodhi. Perhaps we'd have better luck asking them than doing all of this.

[ she sounds tired all of the sudden. ]

[ Bodhi sighs, leaning back on his knees. ] Yeah well, if they know anything, they're not talking to the rest of us.

[ he lets his hand hover over the keypad. ] May I?

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